I’ve said before, I’m quite impulsive. I can completely throw myself into something without really considering if I want it. This behavior of mine has resulted in many a long walk back to reality with my tail tucked firmly between my legs.
I don’t know if it’s age or if my mild-tempered hubby is finally rubbing off on me, but I’ve settled a LOT in the last year or two. I’ve allowed myself to broach the idea that I am not one thing (writer!) or the other (jeweler!). I’m allowing myself to be the things that I am without them necessarily having to “fit” with the flavor of the month.
One of the things that I regret is that when I let go of my blog, Eat Move Write, I also let go of the label “healthy living blogger.” When I wasn’t accountable, I just let go of everything and started eating in a way that a “healthy living blogger” doesn’t usually eat. I stopped exercising regularly, and I just sort of gave in to the myriad emotions that have always told me to eat my pain away. I’ve spent a couple of years now battling with the way my grief demons and my love-to-eat demons so easily come together and wreak havoc on my health.
Because I have a tendency toward “all or nothing” thinking, if I wasn’t being healthy, I was being the opposite. Lately, I’ve been trying to re-incorporate many of the principles I used when writing EMW, but without the obsessiveness, without the feeling that I HAVE to eat like X and exercise like Y. I don’t have to take pictures of ALL THE FOOD to occasionally take pictures of some of the food. I don’t have to have a healthy living blog just because I want to occasionally blog about my food and exercise for accountability’s sake.
I can have a blog that represents my business, but also represents me, the person. I can talk about press releases and workouts, green smoothies and fertility problems.
All that said, here are a few goals I’m working with lately:
1. Have a green smoothie every day. This is easy; I love them!
2. Workout regularly. Be present when you workout, and do not spend time on guilt when you don’t.
3. Create a work schedule and stick to it. This is hard for me. I naturally buck the concept of staying “within the lines,” but I do accomplish more when I do.
4. Take more walks. It’s Oregon, land of very rare snowpocalypses. I should take advantage.
5. Make more friends. I have an issue with friendship retention here in Oregon. I compare my friendship problem to the girl who goes on lots of first dates. I can’t seem to get past Date 1 with people in Oregon. I specify Oregon because I didn’t so much have this issue in California or Indiana, so… not sure.
6. Read more. Since becoming more tech-literate (ipad, iphone, blah blah), I read less. I’ve discovered the Kindle app on my iPad, and stunningly, I read a lot more using it. I’ve read 10 books and a novella already this year. (For an added challenge, I plan to read all the books on this list this year. Many of these are not books I would naturally choose, so it will be a good challenge.)
7. Cook more, take out less. I love take out. Any kind of take out, really. It tastes good. It dirties no dishes. It feeds my desire to be lazy. However, it doesn’t do much for my waist line and it costs a bundle. I’m a decent cook, and once I get in the kitchen, I enjoy it. Habit! Must reinstate the habit!
I’m sure there are more, but writing this blog means I’m not doing something else. Must move along. Tootles!